not a lot.
The resistance has been covered by bouts of activity, thinking that I am making progress, being flexible, solving problems except for one of the bigger issues; how the finances are going to be managed. Somehow I had a lot of trouble really thinking that one through properly. The implications, what was going to be required. The main thing being the pressure I was going to be putting myself under for the foreseeable future.
It was a chance conversation with a friend that suddenly woke me up, plus the recent problems that do need sorting out now.
I have got to have a couple of awkward conversations, not looking forward to telling the family. I am trying not to feel really stupid but it isn’t easy.
So how to spot the signs? Is there something you are resisting looking at? Do you always put it at the bottom of your priority list; just forget to take action, fall asleep? Any or all of the above, take your pick.
Are you talking about something happening in the future, in your secret heart do you know it isn’t going to happen?
One of the things that happened when my friend said about did I really need to do this, was the great lift I felt, like a huge load had come off of my shoulders. A feeling that I could breathe, had some room for manoeuvre; that I could look at things that I did want to do without feeling that I was carrying a mountain around with me. I would have more flexibility, choice and reserve. Happy Days.
Have a look around for your areas of resistance or strain, is there anything you can do about it. Notice how you feel if you think about letting it go.
And (whisper it) don’t beat yourself up, congratulate yourself on treating yourself with wisdom and compassion.
I have put a useful information tab on my website which I will be adding to every month. Here is the link to this months offering, I hope you find it useful.